Well my first meditation was hardcore. Felt like my negative thoughts were going to kill me.
Then at the night I must have had some nasty nightmares as I woke up screaming three times lol.
Rather cringy but I see it that way - I've been on 4 jewpharmas and got nothing good out of it.
Tried microdosing lsd, shrooms also not for me.
Now I fall asleep and wake up at peace. Previously I was scared of what will happen and how hard everything is going to be.
Any difficulty was leaving me shaking but not anymore.
Instead I just do what has to be done without negative feelings.
My dissociative motor disorder is also showing less.
Existing seems much more easier.
Oh and also started working out to keep crooked spine in place and get those endorphins that everyone's talking about.Post too long. Click here to view the full text.